Eversince I was a kid, I tried my hardest to be the perfect daughter. Studious, polite, well dressed, quite and looking after my mother for all the shit she has endured in life and how much of a good mother she is. I'm 21, and now I'm realising, she was never the perfect mother she claims to be. All she has ever done is being a somewhat decent mother, mostly for her son (older than me) than for me, since I did my most stuff myself so I wouldn't burden her and the rest of the family and she has never done anything extraordinary. She has done what mothers supposed to do, cause we didn't ask to be born! I hid my bad parts, pretended to be sth that I'm not, hoping for things to get better when I get older but it's just getting worse. Now my mother holds me responsible for everything, even her shitty choices in buying clothing ("she said it looks good so I bought it!") and I'm not even allowed to complain, cause if I do, she acts as if I have no right to have feelings, that I always have to be this quiet respctful person and if I lash out it's entirely my fault, and she is ALWAYS the victim. If the same happens withy brother? She will nag about his behaviour endlessly, but no matter what will do things to appeal to him, "because I'm a mother, I can't let go of my kid" (Now I enjoy whenever he is rude to her, because this is what she brought upon herself by bringing him up to be spoiled little brat) and I'm done. Just done. I want nothing to do with her. (I can't leave the house, since I go to uni in my hometown and the state of the economy is not allowing me or people my age to be able to rent a place for their own. So yeah I'm stuck here.)